HOME | 2x2
by Caitrin

[Sequel to You Say You Love Me]

[Based on the song lyrics of 'Home' by Westlife.]

.script by Mirelle.

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felt as though there was no use in even trying anymore. Since had left him his life had been empty. All he could think about was how his life had been with her and more so that she was pregnant with his child.

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home

All wanted was for his life to return to how it had been, minus the cheating and lying. was ’s ‘home’, things just weren’t right without her. The house was empty and he hated going back to it. It had barely been a month since she had left but it had easily been the longest month in his life.

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

The nights had been the loneliest, even when he had been on the road, in a foreign place he always found comfort in the knowledge that he could phone her at anytime. Now though he had no-one to talk and seemed to spend his nights staring at the ceiling, willing himself to sleep. He had hoped that would come back after a few days, realising that really had meant what he had said to her on the phone and the endless text messages he had sent her. He desperately wanted to change for but guessed he would never have the chance to prove that now.

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby, how are you?"

The un-franked letter remained in ’s suitcase. He would beg if he had to, in fact he had done throughout the letter. Never having found the courage to actually post it, as he thought there would be no use, he had kept it. had made her mind up and was moving on without .

Well, I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Of course a letter would never convince of how was feeling and how he was planning to change. Only changing and physically proving his intentions would suffice. She deserved better than the way had treated her but now he was paying for it and he was truly sorry, but sorry wouldn’t cut it, after all it was just a word. A word that had lost all meaning.

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
I got to go home

Travelling around Europe only made the pain and emptiness seem to amplify. He was away from home and was lonely with no-one to turn to for comfort. knew things wouldn’t be the same but he would have given his life to see and make her happy again.

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

All he wanted was to be home and for it to feel like his home. For now it was simply a house that was far too big and empty. The bed was cold and he felt uncomfortable sleeping in it on his own, so he had taken to sleeping in one of the spare rooms.

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right

’s life was hollow. He was going through the motions almost as though he was on auto pilot. He got up did whatever was scheduled for that day and then went back to the hotel to wallow in his self pity. was well aware that he could have changed things but chose to ignore this fact, it made him feel worse – despite the fact he didn’t think it possible.

And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
This was not your dream
But you always believed in me

What made things worse was the fact that everything had been so perfect between him and . This wasn’t how the dream ended, it wasn’t meant to end, and really it had barely begun. People had said they would never make it but they pursued what they wanted, they had believed.

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

had bitten the bullet and posted the letter he had been carrying around for two weeks. Finally he had found the courage; after all, what was the worst that could happen? Nothing was worse than the love of his life walking out on him. The only way he could make his house a home again was to face up to things and be brave.

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

No matter what anyone said the pain was still there and seemed to be getting stronger as time passed. Too many people had told him that things would become easier…hell what did they know? They weren’t him! Their wives hadn’t left them. His had and it was his fault! People came and went everyday but for all cared they may just as well have not bothered at all. He didn’t notice them, he preferred to be on his own, that was how his life would be from now on.

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home

read the letter she had received earlier that morning. She had been apart from and had had plenty of time to think things through. However hard she tried there was no denying she loved . She quickly tapped out a text and pressed send before she changed her mind.

opened the message he had just received and the lads saw him smile his first real smile for over month.

It'll all be alright
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

The End